Today I am feeling thankful. For most of my life, summer has been the busiest time of the year. We moved to the farm when I was ten and summers were for working long hard days. We milked cows, cleaned stalls, baled hay, mowed lawns, worked in the gardens, and helped with the housework. There was little time to play, however, we did take time to take a horseback ride or a sunset swim followed by an ice-cream cone once in a while. Through college and into married life, summers have continued to be busy as we continue to help my aging parents and my brother as much as possible.
This is the third summer that he has been home with me while on summer vacation, but the first one since the SSDI Hearing. So much has happened in the last year and I am grateful for some respite and some special time with my husband- just the two of us, not being quite so busy. Earlier in the year, I thought about things I wanted to do to celebrate our 50 years. I created a list of things that I want to do over the year, but really, I just don’t want to work all the time, and I want to be with the love of my life. I really don’t care what we do. I just want to make memories, and if I could have anything in the world, I wouldn’t leave his side until the Lord takes him home.
One of my favorite things to do with my husband is to work by his side, and this last week, we have enjoyed the company of weeding together. We have eaten every meal together, gone for walks, watched movies, and thoroughly enjoyed one another. My favorite thing is that we fall asleep holding hands. It is amazing how your priorities change, as well as your attitude when you are told you have just a few short years left with the one you love. I just want my kids to be happy and I want to be with my husband. That is all. I don’t know what the future holds.
I don’t know what I am going to do. I don’t know how I’ll be able to keep up with the house. I don’t know anything. But today, I am just going to focus on giving my husband my undivided attention and to enjoy the little things. Today I look forward to:
1. Going on a ferry ride to visit our youngest daughter.
2. Going for a walk around Moosepoint State Park.
3. Taking the canoe down and taking it for a spin around the pond.
4. Walking the beach and looking for shells.
5. Grilling out with family every chance we get.
6. Making blueberry pies like Linda taught me.
7. Enjoying the Botanical Gardens with friends.
8. Going camping.
9. Spending time visiting/Skyping with the kids.